The beauty of Time

  Picking up the curse of an excuse of a textbook. I just realize something phenomenal, flicking through two years ago  hellish subject. Maths Methods.

   For a junior like me back then, things wasn't as dandy as the smartest crayon in the crayola pack. I was unfortunately the dumbest of all. You might think, that I'm doing three years my senior subject, that is pretty remarkable. That I would have a superior intelligence.


   Sadly, you all are wrong. There were many that was the same age as me but smarter, brighter and prettier. Yes, I was pretty hung up of how unfair god created us humans.  But Amen to God, that's a post for another day.

   Well with time...like today, I decided to open the textbook and mind blowingly I CAN DO IT ALL. EUREKA. All the topics was easy as pie. 3.14...yeah actually lets use another example ...erm easy as ABC :D

  So lesson of the day, eat your pie. You may never know when you need it.

what humans are here for?

            Have you ever when you just feel like quitting, feel like the world had give up on you? Well its been a long while since I long rant the thoughts that have been circling on my mind.
         
           What are we here for?

             If you expect an anwser to you philosophy students well don't expect one. Because to all contary belief I'm still young and vibrant with not much experience of what is to happen in this human life span. Maybe I'll never know how things will happen.

            But I know all this. Our generation of people that live and breath technology. We are at the advantage, we don't need to travel or know people to understand and hear people stories. For social media and the internet have get rid of boarders that we human create to control and have power.

              Those past memories of me when I'm a kid playing the game boy advance and using windows 99 ( i think thats what its call back than >_< my memory is failing me). Back than everyone thought that was the most advance technology ever. But now Ipad 3 is coming out soon, thin and super slim laptops that I'm using.

               We have done things at such a speed that I'm anxious to know what can science and the innovation of people can offer.  But its still come down to one question. Why are we humans here for? Where do we fit in this grand scheme of the universe.

             It is like the flow of time when few minutes ago I ask the same question and probably many generations and those before me ponder. It all will come down to this, will technology hinder our human advancement to know whats in the universe or will it help us. Will people abuse this power or  people inginuety will give us the formula the rules that acompass this universe.

            

The anwser is up to us humans. For we are in a sense the master of faith.

Losing

       Don't wait for miracles, your whole life is a miracle. 

       

            I was part of a tactical unit back when I was in the army . The job that I did was not the glamorous one where you usually see in movies and TV. I'm disappointed in myself for the things that I have done and saddest of all my country thought I'm a hero. 

            
        It was unfortunate I went against the words of my parents and run to join the army. Thinking I could grasp the situation and to find a solution to solve it . The situation that I was shown was hellish.And the answer to the problem can't  be fixed for we all have gone to far in hating each other.  No matter who your fighting, in the end NO ONE will  win a war.  


          The missions that I partake are all classified mission that I'm under the contract not to say anything. Through the things that I have done and seen what I can tell you  the biggest mistake of being human are our  nature to be greedy, thinking we're self important , jealousy and worst of all to proud for our damn good.


          
             I'm sorry to those that lost their lives in a war. Nothing can replace your love one.  Nothing can replace the nightmare that I have been expose to and done to you all.  What I can give you all is just my life repaying back to my comrades, enemy and my country of what we humans seem to do wrong  in every turn in history.