Journal of a rabbit

 
             I was suprised of how mundane my life had been. The every day routine of awaking, talked, laughed, smile and talking to friends  that I have forgoten the painful things I learned in life.

 
I wasn't meant, to be happy.

           Lessons I went, the seat that I used to sit, the people that I laugh together. Gone in a blink in an eye. The things that I took granted of, dissapear. It's like the season causing me to feel so cold, lonely and sinking into deep abyss.

          The thing was I think this time, it really gutted my heart to pieces leaving me empty. Gone, people that I thought in the highest regards ignore me like I was just a tiny insect beneath thier shoes. Curshing me, not caring that I was no, AM living.

         Even though it's painful, it will be part of my hopping maybe stumbling life. Events, incidents shook my life , shook it till theres no more hope left that I coud see. This will not be like those soapy sucidal thoughts but the feeling and journal of several insignificant events that just happened.

       Happened that one day it will all be forgotten. The past , current and future generation probably felt hallow maybe felt betryaed. It's part of life, life of our insignificant race. The race of humans that seem to be so cruel yet so beautiful.

Leaving me old and battered, the memories
we had was all for naught

     

Acceptance of yourself

TWell I'm gonna start of this post your beautiful.

Who are you?
Well my name is Patricia or also known as trisha asha or my other internet name camerata.

What is this about?
This is a post dedicating to the people I have known that gone through a time. Trouble to accept what they are and deeply traumatised by people who didn't accept other people differences.


Whoever you are, comming out telling people of you being gay, bi , lesbian or transgender. Even though its not hard. I mean there is trouble depending. It's just that we well use to live in a society where they are narrow minded, it is still kinda is but time has change.

I want to know it's okay. Even though you might get bully, whever it be physical or verbally. I want to give a hearfelt sorry if that ever happen to you. I know it can be tough because I have friends that confide in me telling of things that people did to them and how it scared the shit out of them.

However never give up, if your parents may not be accepting, there will always be friends out there. Either real life or online friends. I know you might think you serious , online friends?

Yes, I am serious online friends are still people. There are people out in this 7 billion populated world that understands you give you a sense of acceptance. One of the couple of people I met online had different set of problems that came to open out to me.

Problems ranging from relationship problems, heart break, death and theier preference of sexuality. The stories I have heard from this people torn me. I always wish that I would able to give those people a real big hug and comfort them but all I can give them is my open ear and words that hopefully soothe them.

After reading this, some might be daunted but no. Don't fear, never fear. You are perferct just the way you are and you are beautiful. 

To those wonderful people out there, ever need someone look around. There's people out there willing to lend to reach out a hand to help you.


Sincerly from me to  you all.

Nano Technology Guide

 So someone recently ask my in my opinion of nanotechnology. Well here's a guide to nano-technology and thier application in the real world .

Well first we gotta understand the most fundamental things.
What is nano-technology?

• Nanotechnology is the engineering of functional systems at the molecular scale.

So there that's done. Now to the fun things. When is nano-technology use and found it ? Well be prepare to be suprise.

The one thing, we all should use when its Summer ( well at least attempt in using).Sunscrean.  Certain sunscreen brands have seen fit to incorporate nanotechnology into their products; the use of molecularly-engineered materials means that these sunscreens are many times more effective at absorbing light than normal brands.

Nano technology is good when it comes to UV Ray. Their minute particle size enables them to cover more skin with less cream base and since they spread more easily, you use less of the sunscreen and theoretically save money.


Right now nanotechnology is relulationizing the medical field.


Due to nanotechnology operatating on such a small scale, it offers the opportunity to create precisely targeted surgical instrument,  drug delivery systems, and implants.  Nanomaterials can also be implanted into the body; for example, someone with a badly damaged bone or joint could be treated with nanoparticles which would promote new growth, regrowing the damaged tissue.

what humans are here for?

            Have you ever when you just feel like quitting, feel like the world had give up on you? Well its been a long while since I long rant the thoughts that have been circling on my mind.
         
           What are we here for?

             If you expect an anwser to you philosophy students well don't expect one. Because to all contary belief I'm still young and vibrant with not much experience of what is to happen in this human life span. Maybe I'll never know how things will happen.

            But I know all this. Our generation of people that live and breath technology. We are at the advantage, we don't need to travel or know people to understand and hear people stories. For social media and the internet have get rid of boarders that we human create to control and have power.

              Those past memories of me when I'm a kid playing the game boy advance and using windows 99 ( i think thats what its call back than >_< my memory is failing me). Back than everyone thought that was the most advance technology ever. But now Ipad 3 is coming out soon, thin and super slim laptops that I'm using.

               We have done things at such a speed that I'm anxious to know what can science and the innovation of people can offer.  But its still come down to one question. Why are we humans here for? Where do we fit in this grand scheme of the universe.

             It is like the flow of time when few minutes ago I ask the same question and probably many generations and those before me ponder. It all will come down to this, will technology hinder our human advancement to know whats in the universe or will it help us. Will people abuse this power or  people inginuety will give us the formula the rules that acompass this universe.

            

The anwser is up to us humans. For we are in a sense the master of faith.

Losing

       Don't wait for miracles, your whole life is a miracle. 

       

            I was part of a tactical unit back when I was in the army . The job that I did was not the glamorous one where you usually see in movies and TV. I'm disappointed in myself for the things that I have done and saddest of all my country thought I'm a hero. 

            
        It was unfortunate I went against the words of my parents and run to join the army. Thinking I could grasp the situation and to find a solution to solve it . The situation that I was shown was hellish.And the answer to the problem can't  be fixed for we all have gone to far in hating each other.  No matter who your fighting, in the end NO ONE will  win a war.  


          The missions that I partake are all classified mission that I'm under the contract not to say anything. Through the things that I have done and seen what I can tell you  the biggest mistake of being human are our  nature to be greedy, thinking we're self important , jealousy and worst of all to proud for our damn good.


          
             I'm sorry to those that lost their lives in a war. Nothing can replace your love one.  Nothing can replace the nightmare that I have been expose to and done to you all.  What I can give you all is just my life repaying back to my comrades, enemy and my country of what we humans seem to do wrong  in every turn in history.

      

Headaches 101 ( Tension Headaches)

 
                     Every single human being have experience headaches, it is  consider one of the most common problems and annoying ailment  that should be inflicted to humans . There are a number of different types of headache and many different causes, which explains why the condition is so common.


                  Causes

 Anything which stimulates the pain receptors in the head and neck can cause a headache, including:

• Dental or jaw problems 
• Injuries to the neck
•  Eye strain 
• Muscular Tension
• High Blood Pressure

  Tension Headaches
 Tension Headaches  is most common type of headache.

• Feels like a tight band of pressure around the head
• Often associated with muscle tightness in head, neck or jaw
• Can be caused by physical or emotional stress
• Is best treated by making lifestyle adjustments, such as exercise, diet, stress management and attention to posture.

 Remember this

   Headache is a common disorder,most people take painkillers for headache at any given time.

  There are different types of headache and many causes, which explains why the condition is so common.
         
Types of headache include tension, cluster and migraine.

Forgotten what day it is

         Well  waking up from my sweet dreams,  I woke up to a vision of roses outside my window. The roses warmth up my heart as a melancholic smile reach my face.

             

              " He did it again" I mused
         

May our love immortalize till eternity

     
               Deciding to do my usual rounds at the hospital , checking out my patients. Passing in and out the wards, the scent of roses and chocolates gently reach my nose.  I looked at couples talking animatedly and saw husbands or wife talking to their love ones.


               Than memories flooded my mind how I met him. It was on this day that I met him as one of my patient . It was quite comical how it happened but it was his smile and wicked sense of humor that tug my heartstrings.  I guess its another time of year to celebrate our meeting on this faithful day of love.






              When I am reassured that all my patient is well , I went out to go visit him , my fiance.  Bringing flowers , his favorites roses in red and white. I silently kneel down on the ground placing his favourites upon his grave.



               


       " Happy Valentines David, its been 3 years since out faithful encounter at my office. Funny thing is if  only you didn't had that tumor probably  we could be happy but if you didn't had it we might  had never meet each other." 

               Words fall on deaf ears as she cried, it was the only time of year where her facade of normalcy doped. Leaving her vulnerable to the numbing pain of loosing her fiance. 

          Sielence............
   
      Silence doesn't anwser 

  Silence doesn't ease the pain

                 


             " I love you , David. "

                     
  Happy Valentines Day to all readers , be it single, marry or in a relationship
                                             for time will come where you'll met your right 
                                                                   love